Daily Life

"Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future, but wanting to control" Khalil Gibran Learning not to control others, situations to keep anxiety at bay.

I awoke at 4 a.m. today with flashbacks to previous situations and experiences. It was quite vivid, and I could see myself being put in many perilous situations, yet there was an inherent optimism within me that drew me out of them. Strangely, I had no idea those were risky situations until today, and if I hadn't been an optimist, my life might have taken a different turn. I realised I had spent the majority of my life oblivious of myself, but my hope for a brighter future kept me going.

Acknowledging a mistake with the relevant stakeholder is the first and most important step for self growth. Second crucial step is understanding and internalizing the flawed behaviour that led to the mistake. It's vital to understand one's behavior and attitude and correct it. This internalizing finally leads to an intent to take corrective action in changing a thought process, bias, or a behaviour pattern. In doing the second step, one gains more self awareness and are watchful of the pitfalls when we are in the center of similar situation in the future. I learnt that I am way too pushy with doing things in a particular way, and keep blinders on to any new way of accomplishing the task. I was recently guided in realizing this flaw and could internalize it quickly. The person guided me in a very humane manner and called out on the flaw, which really made me realize my thinking pattern.  Thankful to my loved ones that guide me the right way, it would have not made an impact if s...

My younger self believed that things had to turn out my way and every single time of all the past decisions i took, made me realize it was never my way! We create our own fantasy around every decision taken and think it was our plan, only to realize that it was someone's else plan and we just played our part. I am in peace with the feeling that things didn't turn out the way I  had planned, guess that's what is called growing up. Thank you to everyone who contributed to the thickening of the plans and played a part in my life within the larger schemes of existence this year. Looking forward for wonderful year ahead full of realizations, warmth, love, abundance, and experiences. Happy 2023 to everyone!

With each passing day I realize that my outlook and perspective towards life is changing. Becoming aware of these changes is my first step towards the acceptance of new me. Hope to be a better, kinder, and humble version of new me. The realizations came in a little late but I am glad it did. Wish everyone a fruitful discovery of oneself.

These are the days for me to keep learning, a more stable and fulfilling environment than the wins. Winning becomes a temporary phenomenon and a quest for more wins after the other which sometimes hampers our personal growth and value. Learning most of the days is a growth process, keeping me grounded and becoming more self-aware. Like some say, a journey or process is more fulfilling than a destination.